To the Dreamers

With how much back and forth I’ve done already for my plans and goals for 2026, it’s hard to believe it’s still 2025.

This year I’m setting only one goal: Embrace. Embrace the uncomfortable, embrace the discomfort.

The biggest obstacle in my life is avoiding everything that is the tiniest bit uncomfortable so this year my only goal is to do the opposite of that and embrace the discomfort and learn how to do things despite it.

With that being said, there are other things I would like to achieve and I’ll make a list or vision board with some of those things but the main focus is to embrace the discomfort and that can take many forms.

I do want to set goals on smaller time frames. I’ve debated with quarterly or monthly or even two months but with the amount of focus chances I’ve had already, only, in one month, I think I’m going to set goals weekly, at least for the month of January and see how that goes.

And then I can add my weekly goals to the weekly reflections, you know the ones I said I was going to do in the beginning of December and never did…

I’m turning 26 years old in 2026 and I’m going through some sort of a crisis, until 2025 it felt like I had my whole life in front of me and I’m still so young and I’m not actually an adult, not that 26 is old but it’s like, wait, I’m an actual adult and I’ve done nothing with my life, I don’t know if it’s because it’s closer to 30 or not, but I’m feeling some sort of way.

So I have decided to go back to college, this is something I’ve wanted to do for a few years but I’ve been postponing it because I wanted to have my dream life and be my dream self and not struggle so much with my mental health before that but if I keep waiting it might never happen, probably it won’t happen.

Almost turning 26 is really highlighting these feelings so I’ve decided that I will enroll in college for the school year of 2026/2027.

Still there are things that I would like to achieve before that but maybe things don’t need to be perfect and maybe I don’t have to have everything figured out before going back to college.

I’m hoping having this time frame helps me achieve certain things, but on the other hand I’ve wanted to do these things for so long and was never able to do them, so why would it be different this time? Part of me kinda wants to gaslight myself into thinking this time will be different and maybe if I can convince myself I can actually achieve something.

But I don’t know, I just have so little trust in myself. However I am a different person, far from who I want to be but I’m definitely closer than I was a few years ago, I did things that past me would never be able to and for the average person may seem trivial or normal stuff but for someone with a lot of insecurities and anxiety it’s definitely something worth noticing and being proud of.

And maybe this year is the year where I’ll finally take control of my life and change it for the better.

If I ghost this blog though, that most likely did not happen and I’m self isolating and avoiding everything as one does when things don’t work out.

I’ll make a quick post with my goals for the rest of the week, so from January 1st until the 4th and then on Saturdays I will start doing the reflections and setting the goals for the next week.

And finally I wish everyone a happy new year and may all your dreams come true.